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Gymnast’s Mental Block

Just go for it. Count to three and go. It is that simple. But then your mind starts to wonder off. What if… What if my hand slips? What if I miss?  You then start to picture every single way you can fall or mess up.  You hear a voice in the background. It is the coach, the one you call dad, the one you trust.  You know if he spots you, you will not fall.  You want him to be there next to you, just in case you fall. But you hear him, suddenly screaming at you.  Tell you to hurry up.  “Just count to three and go for it!” he will say.  You start to count to three but your mind starts to wonder off once more.  You try to forget about it, avoid that evil voice that prevents you from concentrating.

After you have counted to three about a million times, after you have imagined every way of falling, of messing up and possibly ending your dream of winning gold, of being called an Olympic champion, you finally decide to go for it.

One…two…three…you feel your body moving.  However, it is a movement you can’t control, it is something that comes to you naturally, almost robotically.  You have done this at least one hundred times in the floor, but it is not the same.  Your hands touch the beam.  You feel a great relief.  One way of possibly ending your career is eliminated. Now the Second part, Landing.  Your feet are perfectly headed in the right direction, but all of the sudden you feel something is not right.  This is when you realize you are falling. You messed up.  You feel your feet, followed by the rest of your body land on that soft blue mat. That mat that you adore so greatly, the one that has saved your life so many times.  Then you realize you are ok, in one piece, no broken bones, no sprains, nothing, but why are you so terrified? Why are your hands shaking?

Then you hear the coach, once again: “What does he want now?” you will ask yourself. You hear him say “see it wasn’t that bad, now get up and go again.” What? Is he crazy!  I can’t go again! I almost killed my self, almost ended my dream, my career.  Of course you are exaggerating, you know it wasn’t that bad.  However, your mind wont let you get up.  Your body is trembling with fear. You manage to get up, however you still haven’t managed to stop shaking.

That evil voice returned, but this time you are seduced, tricked by that evil little insignificant voice.  Others have let that voice completely take over them. They have all quit. They have extinguished their dreams and all their hard work became a waste of time. They gave up. But they were weak, powerless, unlike you.  You will not let that voice overpower you.  You will not quit.  You will not give up that long awaited dream. You will be the best.

Nonetheless, by this time you have already started to cry.  You are scared. In fact, you are terrified.  You don’t even want to touch that thing, which you can’t even say its name. Your team mates will then come and talk to you, they will say: “We all go through the same thing, please stop crying, just get up and do it.” However, that evil voice will tell you to not listen to them, they are all your enemies, they are your competition, they want the same thing, and they will do anything to eliminate the competition.  They were the ones that made you petrified.  They got all those images in your head.  They are just saying this to have you on their side, so then when you least expect it they will strike.  You know this because you are capable of the same thing.  This is not a team sport it is only you and the apparatus, nothing else.

You will go up and just stand there, pretending you will go.  Thinking, deciding if you should go.  If you should risk your life once again.  The coach will tell you to get down.  He knows you are dead afraid.  He knows you are not going to go for it.  At first you will not want to listen to him.  But as he starts to talk, to give you the speech, you start to listen.  He finally cheers you up and you come to an agreement.  He convinced you. You will risk your life once more, you will do it.  And when you land, you will realize how much you really want this. It is your dream.  You will not give it up just because of a stupid little fall.  You manage to tell that evil little voice to shut up.  You are now in control. You finally go for it, breaking the ice, knowing you are one step closer to your dream. Your feet touch the beam. You are in shock. OMG I CANT BELIEVE I DID IT! but your face doesn’t give you away, you are confident because You Know you did it.

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I wake up in the morning at 6 o’clock they say there might be rain but the sun is hot ! Ride my bike till i hit the spot. check out  all the waves in motion and all i need is some suntan lotion for all this commotion. !

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